When you have everything....

So yes.. once again.. about LIFE !! God has been really kind to me. Gave me everything I demanded. Sometimes I sit back and think.. do we actually  JUST get whatever we deserve or God gives us as much as possible :) But then that's a different story.


Was just thinking.. I have practically everything that one should have.. ya few things one shouldn't have - like extra weight :D But again that is a different issue. So ya.. I should be happy..  I mean really happy.. Good education.. wonderful family.. a decent job.. and money enough to waste also... Um.. for someone who wil look at my life from a distance.. yes.. will feel I have no reason to be sad.. :) And actually I dont have..

But.. I am feeling sad :( because who likes a perfect life ?? !!!

I miss those days when for a very small amount of money also I had to wait and used to be so elated once I could save the desired amount :) But today.. savings are cool.. and spending is cooler.. but what is missing.. is the real fun in spending the money.. hope you getting what I mean...

Next.. this sense of boredom.. in student life.. we learnt new stuff.. and lot of hard work was involved.. but today... we are no doubt learning.. but somehow.. that pressure is not there.. the one reading this might think m so boastful.. or may be i am a cribber.. but few will be able to relate to it... it feels great after you have faced and overcome challenges rather than just sitting and waiting for some challenge to come your way...


Then.. the worst thing.. being idle.. perhaps the worst feeling.. there are times when we want to be really idle but that is only after doing lot of.. i mean real amount of work.. but being idle after being idle :D is really boring.. and it kinda kills me.. not like I don't like it.. but only for a while..

So.. Life.. it gave me... everything.. and now I want it to modify whatever it gave me.. I wont like to lose any of it.. but can't accept in the same form.. Gosh.. change is what we want.. change is what we dislike...

Humans and Human nature !! God.. and actually.. God only knows !!

Mummy :)

Mummy !! :) The one who is responsible for my life.. the one who gave me this life...

She taught me everything possible.. everything she knew..

When I was a little girl.. and till date.. she cooked for me whatever I liked.. and never expected that someday even I would do the same..

She bought me many gifts to make me happy.. and her happiness always was attached with mine...

She taught me so that one day I could be well educated...

She stayed awake so that I don't feel lonely while studying...

She prayed.. prayed daily... and her prayers were always for me.. for my health.. for my education... selflessly she prayed.. :)

Today.. I feel guilty.. somewhere I have changed.. grown up.. her care seems too much.. I hurt her.. but she.. she smiles back.. I know she will be waiting for me exactly where I told her Good Bye.. for she knows.. her daughter.. needs her at every step.. no matter how independent I become.. no matter how much I try to hide.. I need you mummy..

I know you are not reading this bacause who don't access internet.. and I wont be able to tell this to you because am too shy.. but yes.. for others who can.. tell ur mummy.. you love her.. trust me.. mums just need love.. and love.. no gift..nothing.. our happiness..and our love.. this is what keeps them going..

I love my MUM.. and I am sorry for hurting her many times.. but I am happy.. I could apologize most of the times.. :)